Wednesday, March 07, 2007

If I Had Known...

Desmond messaged this morning asking if we wanted to book flight tickets to US together. So we're tentatively leaving on April 17th (happens to be Wee Kuan's birthday), flight unknown, time unknown. It's hard to maintain that denial state, the I-refuse-to-think-about-leaving... I want to leave, because that would mean I passed the exam but I don't wanna leave either...

If I pass the dreaded USMLE.

I wonder how it feels to leave everything here and just go. It's not just family and home...
  • It's just 5 months since Kai Meng and I got together but I'm already wondering how life would be without being able to share a joke or an experience with him...
  • Seeing Jee Ken off was hard enough (and God knows how long it took for me to get used to not having him in the same country) but at least Kah Heng was still around to bully (or get bullied)... I wonder what it would be without the IMU buddies.
  • Having the MGS gang conveniently around (whether for hanging out or just SMS chats) is something so constant that it's become some source of comfort. Shi Leng better share how you managed.
  • And the Taekwondo gang that I've grown to become so fond of...
  • And the IMU juniors...
If I knew it would be so difficult, I would have considered Seremban three years ago.

2 Comments:

Blogger indigenius said...

hey eve.. i miss u.. sigh.. u kno..forget the USMLE.. u'll have passed that; if it was in His divine plan to choose 3-i am speaking from my point- He would have kept that door open for you.. trust me.. and about leaving.. i kno exactly how u feel (since i moved countries too), u will be fine friend.. n now that i m at that same phase again, i hav to thank u cuz of how much u made settling in back in sem 1 soap smooth,thanks eve..

7:10 PM  
Blogger lishun said...

bah. 2 weeks into tju, you'd have forgotten about us. hehe. =P

10:04 PM  

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